the greek vegan

So yeah I started my new job. I hope to get my fucking car fixed soon and start getting tattooed again. I never write in this thing anymore. Lately I've just been depressed and shit moping around and stuff yea I'm done whining about it for now.

So I got my car running today. I'm still sure theres a couple things wrong with it. It's not the engine though its pretty fixable. So yeah I hope I get the rest fixed later.

I GOTTA GET AWAY, THE TENSION IS WEARING THIN, TRAPPED IN THIS FUCKING PLACE, I NEED SOME FUCKING RELEASE MAN, SHIT HAS GOTTEN TO ME AND ITS MAKING ME WISH I WAS GONE, GO SOMEWHERE OFF IN THE LANDS, THIS SHIT HAS GOTTEN TO MUCH, ALL THE FUCKING TIME I THOUGHT IT'D GO AWAY, BUT MY FUCKING LUCK IT'S HERE TO STAY, I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS PLACE, I NEED SOME FUCKING RELEASE, I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS PLACE, I NEED SOME FUCKING RELEASE

IM SO SICK OF EVERYONES FUCKING EXCUSES I WANNA TEAR THEM DOWN

I'm starting to think I'll never be happy again. Life isn't as cool as it was 3 years ago. I wish I had a time machine, I'd hop into it and just go back. I have a tendency to dwell on how the past is so much better then the present and the future. Shits changing too much. I miss being a kid. Remembering the first show I went to and how everyone was together. I remember when I went and saw Bane for the first time at the fireside and they were playing with dead to fall, hope conspiracy, and reach the sky and how everything was cool back then. Anyhow I just am trying to find out what I could do to make myself content and happy. What do I need to do to fill that empty void that I have in my insides right now. I wake up everyday feeling miserable. Sometimes I just want to cry cause I feel so lost in life. I dont know what the fuck to do. I dont know whats wrong with me. I just am not happy right now.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: the new amsterdams - our new vice

LIVING HERE CHICAGO SUCKS ITS INFESTED WITH STUPID ASS HOES!!!!!

Yeah long drives at 1am in the morning down an open quiet road are pretty funny. I started to think about stupid shit well actually I was thinking how I'm fine with myself and the world around me. That I should stop looking and just be content with whats in front of me.

I'm so fucking sick of life I'm sick of everything nothings going right everyone fucking sucks

Drown in your filth giving everything you loved and held dear, morality thrown out the door, we used to hold true values dear, now our whole being is what we used to be against, nonsense and stupidity seeps deep in us and we dont know how to get back on track, innocence oh how we would love to go back to those times. when everything was easier, when the smile of a child we could see it just by looking in a mirror, no worries, just playfulness and nonetheless we all are committing total nonsense, but once said look to the future and dont look so much to the past, but the memory of our sweet memories keep us sane day after day

I wish I could find a girl and more friends who equal up to my level of awesomeness meaning good music taste, and who dont fucking suck in life

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Current Music: JUDGE - WARRIORS

Fuck I need to do shit. Hahahaha I need to get a car. Why am I so fucking lame. I need to get out way more. I need to quit being online talking to fucking internet bitches. Jesus Fucking Christ I need to get a life. I cant wait till I get a car and I hangout with all my friends more. I've decided that friendship is more important to me then anything if those friends feel the same about the friendship they have with me. If they dont cherish me though the hell with them. So who the fucking honestly cherishes me :) <3333

I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THE NEW DOWN TO NOTHING

I used to think I had the best of friends. I'm starting to realize noone really gives a fuck about me at all. I havea few good ones that actually consider me. There still are some who are selfish inconsiderate fucks though and dont really give a fuck if I live or die though :(

TEAR IT ALL DOWN, TEAR IT TO THE FUCKING GROUND, BURN THIS SHIT TO THE FUCKING GROUND, YOU'VE MANAGED TO RUIN IT ALL, ALL THE BULLSHIT WITH THE MEDIA AND YOUR STUPID INTERNET PORN SAYING WHATS PUNK AND WAHTS NOT, YOU TELL US HOW TO THINK AND HOW TO ACT, THE ONLY WAY TO BUILD IT BACK UP IS BY TEARING THIS SHIT ALL DOWN, YOU GOTTA TEAR IT ALL DOWN, GIVE ME A MATCH SO I CAN BURN IT ALL TO THE GROUND, I'M SICK OF WATCHING YOU RUIN SOMETHING ON WHAT WE WORKED SO HARD TO BUILD

I STILL HATE LIFE

I feel trapped and suffocated. Never knowing what the fuck to do anymore. I hate this fucking place. I suffocate myself and all you fucking scumbags stare. I feel like breaking and totally just giving in. You all make me fucking sick. All your abandonment fuck all of you serioulsy. Fuck Everyone..................

I'm thinking about moving in the fall. Going to get transferred to the ny store and work there. Saving up now to move and for a car. I just cant take living at home and fuck chicago. I just wanna see if my life can get better or happier. I'm so miserable here..........

So yeah I feel asleep on the bus today and missed my stop. I was so fucking tired today I asked to just leave work after 4 hrs. I didnt feel like being tired all day. So yeah thats all. I'm so happy I didnt work a full day today, it felt really good. I work tomorrow from 6am to 2 pm then I have Friday and Saturday off. I decided to just give up on trying to be all into dating girls. Its fucking stupid every girl I've hung out lately has pissed me off. Oh well though girls are worthless...............